Greenwich Mean Time

week 2; 2022

  • Continued to be full of mucus for most of the week
  • Went to an art night at a squat on Wednesday, let someone use my hand as a brush
    • walked with them to the bus, and got the bus, and stood around in the cold
    • it was nice
  • On Friday night i tried to fix my sleep schedule (which was beat up by covid)
    • i went to bed at 9p.m.
    • i woke up at 2a.m. on Saturday and couldn't get back to sleep
    • eventually at around 6a.m. i gave in and i made some spaghetti 🍝 with cream cheese and bacon
  • On Saturday I went to see The Matrix with Christabel. I enjoyed the movie. Christabel did not.
    • there was no price paid, so it does not resolve well. kind of feels like the first half or first third of something.
  • Afterwards we went to a Wetherspoon's (The King's Tun)
  • If a friend needs 3 no-strings-attached utility hickeys to prove to the people at work they live an interesting life, it's perfectly normal to just give them 3 no-strings-attached hickeys there in the pub as a friend and then to feel normal about it
  • While I was there, I was invited to a birthday party
    • They didn't have any vegan birthday cake so I got some from Waitrose, and some candles from a corner shop and travelled with it on public transport from Kingston to Tottenham
  • I forgot to download any music before the journey, so I listened to 1 song on repeat
  • One day recently i had some social anxiety and a voice told me “hey: nobody knows why you’re doing what you’re doing” and it’s unlocked some kind of super-power and i haven't had social anxiety since.
    • let me see if i can explain it in a way where you don’t need to be inside my head: you ever find yourself doing something that you know looks insane, but you have a reason to be doing it so you don't feel weird about it?
      • like you are doing it for a joke, or a favour?
      • or maybe you’re buying a HUGE amount of yoghurt, but you’re going to a yoghurt party and normally you’d be like “wow that’s too much yoghurt to buy”, but now you're like "hey i'm going to a yoghurt party"
      • yeah well basically nobody knows you’re NOT going to a yoghurt party
        • nobody ever knows that whatever you’re doing that you’re not going to a party for that.
    • well, anyway, dancing alone on the underground
  • I spent all night at the birthday party until 7a.m. playing boardgames
    • I got a taxi home
    • I slept all day
    • My sleep schedule is still in disrepair, but hopefully salvageable
  • it's PITCH BLACK in there. you can't see ANYTHING.